
When we discussed the way we can use the Psalms to discover different aspects of religion than those presented in texts like the Bible (and essentially the analogy to pop songs vs. the constitution), I connected it with the song we watched in class--the adaptation of the Psalm in Christian rock form--and it got me thinking. When I was in high school I played in a rock band. The bass player's dad was a pasture at a church and he let us use a room upstairs for rehearsal space (hence our name The Upstares). Other than the bass player none of the other guys in our group went to that church or were even religious. Because we played there so much we eventually got invited to jam with the church rock band that played on Sunday nights for a youth worship gathering called "Xtreme" (there was a second word that I can't remember). For the service only Christian songs were played. I remember while I was playing there I always felt a little weird that I didn't believe in God and yet I was standing there singing backup vocals about Jesus and soloing over tunes about God. After our discussions in this class I've come to think of this music experience as a symbol of this church and Christianity in general. In thinking through that lens, I wonder if its at all problematic that I was part of a symbol that I myself didn't believe in and normally wouldn't stand for. Does my playing for a Christian assembly as a non-Christian de-stabilize or corrupt the power of that symbol? I suppose if know one else knew it would only matter to me but if it were public that I didn't believe in God I wonder how the audience would have perceived it.



